13:36:00 16 May 2007
Hey Bloggers..It's the 16th today..Suppose to be a special day for me. But today turns out to be the saddest day of my life. Last night, I just get to know that Ainni will be engaged next month. I was stunned,shocked,angry,disappointed n sad. I can't stop crying. I waited, 5 months. For her to come back. She always said dat she have the confidence that we will eventually get back together. She always said that she loves me. For 5 months, why didn't she tell me the truth? Even when I asked her why is she getting engaged. Her answer is "I Dunno". Wtf is that suppose to mean? I'm too hurt by this. I really thought that I still have a future with her. I really believe dat she still loves me. But all that came tumbling down on me last night. I was left shivering. Speechless. Why, the person that I love most, can actually bring herself to do this to me? Why!? Why lie!? Why are you so CRUEL!? Why say you love me when you're getting engaged to someone else!? Do I look stupid to you!? Do I look like a ball which u can kick around!? Do I deserve all this!? Is this what I get for waiting? Is this how u treat someone who love you wit all his heart!? Giving his everything to win u back! Tried everything and worked hard to win u back! Is this what I deserved!?