Free period in between classes always allow time for reflection.

My granny(my mom side) is at TTSH. Well, it has been more two months that she has been hospitalized. Suffering from stroke due to a mishap in the toilet.
Time and time again, doctors had told us to be prepared. Her health is deteriorating and had developed pneumonia, living on life-support system. But truly, how prepared can one get? I thought I would have lose her first before anyone else. But fate has its own twist.

Perhaps, shes giving us time to be brave enough...
Perhaps, more time to come into terms with Abah's death..

"Time will heal everything." A lie. A Big Fat Lie when it comes to losing someone because it is still as painful as when you first knew.

But please, give me and my family time to have more strength to face whatever may come.

-iDah-

There were so many events that happened recently that even updating of blog was totally forgotten..

Permanent job at 140 has already started.
Gosh! Never expect it to be this way. Teaching 200+ nearing 300 children is no easy task. Remembering their names ought to be another different job altogether! But the joy of hearing their hellos and greeting me whenever I stepped into the centre really puts a humongous smile on my face. (You see, the computer lab is a different unit from the centre. Therefore, I need to take the children from their classroom and bring them to the lab.) The occasional hugs from the kids, the fun and laughter I see when they work with the software given really pushes me to give them the best.
Ill upload pictures of my working environment soon.

2 days 1 night to KL
This was unexpected as ayah had a free one night stay at Novotel. So darlz and me trotted down to KL for what else? Shopping spree!! Well the trip was simple. Ate lunch at pavillion, head down to Lot 10 and Times Square, ate at Kenny Rogers, Petaling Street and of course our favourite bar at KL, The Green Man.
Pictures will be uploaded soon.

Tiring Sports Day
Well the heading says it all. Super duper, surprisingly tiring. The other teachers, Carina and me were like wonder women transporting boxes and cartons of drinks from the 1st floor storeroom to the 2nd level using trolleys. We were like robots with only one aim. To get it done and over with. What a day it was!

Well many more school events coming up for me. The Garden Party for National Day, Teachers' Day Dinner, K2 Graduation Concert etc.

Darlz, another week of your 'gendeng' afternoon shift work timing. Dreadful. Simply dreadful. Ill miss you so much. Ill find a way to meet you. Ill simply will. =)

Favourite quote (courtesy of S*** J**)
"Teacher Winsa, I love you."
-How adorable and innocent it is to love someone yet getting the name wrong.
Only children could get away with this.

My first week on afternoon shift...I hate it! I hardly get to talk to you. Mostly was just thru SMSes. That alone is not enough. And when I got home, I can't reach you. Already asleep. I understand that you're tired and expecting you to wait for me till I reach home is...selfish. But we didn't really talk. And due to this afternoon shift, we hardly meet up too. It's getting frustrating, I know. The distance to meet is not a problem as both of us riding, but the time constraint is. But I can see you making an effort. To understand my situation and to have a positive thinking towards this. I appreciate it Dear. U made it easier for me to go thru it. I know that we'll always find a way like we always did. But I think this time baby, we need more time to find a way. We will somehow. I know we will. I Miss U, I Really Do...

Work has been hectic for the past few days/weeks for Darlz and me. Working overtime, on weekends etc for Darlz. Reporting to two different centres for me- One in the morning to assist computer and then rush to the other centre to take up my nursery class at 1pm. Thank goodness for my own transport! Though this arrangement will only be for 2 weeks, but its already taking a toll on me. After the 2 weeks, as soon as the computer teacher leaves, I would officially have a whole computer room to myself teaching all the preschoolers. That room basically means

• 16 computers for the children
• 2 computers to myself- teaching on projection & personal use
• 2 printers
• 1 scanner
• a big table and shelves to myself
• a projector
• a mini kitchen
• toilet.

In other words, Im in charge of computer lessons of the whole centre. That is such a scary thought. Computer has not been my forte but I guess it will be a good exposure for me. For now, thats the plan till perhaps the end of the year.Hopefully then, I would be given a new challenge.

Back to us, no matter how dead-beat tired we were, we had still managed to meet up. And for that, I thank you, Darlz. You gave me the strength to last through the day and put a smile to my face at the end. We even managed to hang out with friends--- shisha-ing & chilling.

Its a wonder how its possible to fall in love with you all over again just by looking at you. I love you, Darlz.

-Idah-